Books read in July

Everyone and their mother had been raving about the movie Project Hail Mary, so I impulsively bought a half-price-Tuesday ticket and saw it one day in June after work. Reader, I loved it. It's so good, interesting and sad and beautiful and hopeful. PHM is streaming on Amazon Prime; if you haven't watched it, do. I then obviously signed up to read the ebook on Libby, and because the movie and consequently the book were so popular, the ebook wasn't available to read for like 16 weeks. I also really like the book. If you haven't heard of it, a middle school science teacher wakes up on a spaceship with no memories. He has to figure out why he's there and how to keep an extraterrestrial virus from dimming the sun. The book is much more technical and scientific than the movie, which I liked, but it is sadder because it goes more into what they did to the earth to try to stave off global cooling (even a few percentage points cooler can cause famines and therefore mass death). Ryland is such a genius and has such staggering leaps of logic; I never would have come up with half of the ideas he thought of. The writing felt like an older middle grade/younger young adult novel about adventure or survival or something for boys. The science was above my knowledge (which is low; I'm a humanities major) but not too much; it was mostly followable. I feel like the book and the movie are really good companion pieces; reading the book makes me want to see the movie, and vice versa. Trigger warnings for injuries and blood and an instance of consent being ignored (nonsexual but it's a spoiler so I can't get into it). ★★★★ 

 

I was at my parents' home a lot for family reasons, so out of boredom I picked up and read one of my little brother's favorite books when he was a kid, Flat Stanley. I remember that we used to love reading about his adventures as a two-dimensional child. Upon rereading it, I was surprised by how proper and old-fashioned the writing felt. When I looked up the publication date, I found it was actually first published in 1964! That explains the language. The illustrations are modern (at the time of publication in the nineties), so I never picked up on that. It's a fun story, but there is one instance of sexism (Stanley is disgusted at having to dress up as a girl for plot reasons), and of course the medical inaccuracies (a child will not become flat after a bulletin board falls on him). My copy's illustrations had probably zero people of color, so it was clearly published before people cared about that. ★★★½

 

My last completed read of July was Mooncakes, an adorable YA graphic novel I picked up at the thrift store. Former childhood friends (one a deaf witch, one a nonbinary werewolf) reconnect as teens and have to figure out what is haunting the woods and how to defeat it, while figuring out how to be in each other's lives again. This was very cute and cozy, rather Ghibli-esque, but scarier (to my wuss sensibilities) than it first appeared. There is also a couple of adorable grandmothers. I recommend this to anyone who likes fantasy and graphic novels. The witch girl is Asian, Jewish, biracial I think, and a hearing aid user, while the werewolf kid uses they/them pronouns. TW for kidnapping and forced demonic possession, ableism mentions, and a few instances of wrong pronouns usage, if memory serves. ★★★★

Classic literature books reimagined as eyeshadow palettes: The Very Hungry Caterpillar by Eric Carle

 previously in this "series"

I'm wearing my The Very Hungry Caterpillar T-shirt, face mask, and tote bag today (I love a theme), and it struck me, while thinking about the VHC's iconic meals, how easy it would be to make a makeup palette of this book. As always, the outside of the eyeshadow palette would look like the picture book itself, with the front cover being the front cover (duh), and the inside could have Eric Carle's iconic tissue paper collage art as the interior. I'm thinking we'd put the image of the VHC as a butterfly in the bottom right corner of the mirror. The names of the food it eats would be the eyeshadow shade names, with the round eyeshadow pans being set into the foods illustrations the way the holes are punched through the illustrations in the book (not the same size or to scale with the holes, though). 

one apple - warm red

two pears - soft yellow-green

three plums - dark blue 

four strawberries - cooler reddish pink

five oranges - orange

chocolate cake - matte dark brown 

ice cream cone - light pink

pickle - bright green 

Swiss cheese - matte yellow

salami - marbled reds and browns glitter

lollipop - swirled blue and yellow, with the swirled imprint

cherry pie - duochrome tan with reddish pink shimmer flip

sausage - matte hot pink

cupcake - matte light tan

watermelon - swirled pinky red and green

green leaf - satin darker emerald green 

 

16 eyeshadows in a palette is not usual, so you could eliminate the green leaf shade to make it 15, but I don't really want to. Another option is to make the cherry pie a bronzer/blush duo in the palette. 

Here is the mockup I made in Canva. I had to forgo the green leaf, as that would have required even more egregious image cropping. As it is I've spent way too much time on this.

 

Cute, right? Call me, Eric Carle's estate!

March reads: Trans Rights Readathon books

The Trans Rights Readathon is March 17-31, and I've tried to read at least a couple of books for it each year ever since I heard about it. There's a bingo with prompts you can follow, but I didn't really look at them. Here are my TRR books for this year. Still no cover images as Google/Blogger continues to be stupid and act like they can't add cover by url when they could just fine last month.

 

George/Melissa by Alex Gino - earlier middle grade, thrifted paperback. Own Voices (trans author)

George is a closeted trans girl who hates when people refer to her as a boy. Her fourth grade class has read and is putting on a play of Charlotte's Web, and George desperately wants to be Charlotte—but only girls can try out for the part. The way George is able to be true to herself and come out to the people closest to her as Melissa made me so happy! I used both her names in my review as the book refers to her as George for most of it; the book was originally titled George (as my copy is), but it has recently been re-released with the title Melissa. TW for transphobia (including from Melissa's mother, who eventually comes around), dysphoria, bullying, and sexism/gender roles stuff. ★★★★

Both Can Be True by Jules Machias - later middle grade, thrifted paperback. Own Voices (trans author)

Ash has recently had to switch middle schools after getting bullied for being genderqueer. They're in girl mode but feel nervous about their impending boy mode: will people understand and accept them? Is their dad right about how they should pick a side? Daniel is dealing with his parents' separation and criticism from his family for being an overly emotional boy who cries at everything. He impulsively steals a dog that was supposed to be put down at the vet's office where he volunteers and turns to his photography class classmate, Ash, for help taking care of the dog and finding it a home. The 13 year olds like-like each other, but as Ash drifts into boy mode, will Daniel still like them? I felt for and rooted for these kids, and was so happy for them as they learned to embrace the things other people criticized them for. I wish I could punch Ash's dad, though. TW for transphobia, bullying (including physical), dysphoria, terrible parents, sick animals, animal death mentions, and sexism/gender roles stuff. ★★★★

 

Julián Is a Mermaid by and illustrated by Jessica Love - picture book borrowed from my library

I was at work thinking about what to read next for the TRR, and remembered my work library has this picture book (I had previously used it in a book display for Latine Heritage Month). Julián is a small child (fiveish?) who goes with their abuela on the subway and sees some women dressed up as mermaids. They imagine themselves being underwater with colorful fish as a beautiful mermaid with long hair. At home, they grab things from around the house to dress up, and tell their abuela, "I am a mermaid!" She gives Julián a necklace for their costume and takes them to the ocean-themed parade, where they march among the other mermaids and sea creatures. This book has lovely, colorful art and Afrolatine rep. I was happy that Abuela accepted Julián, but found it hard to believe that a latina abuela wouldn't lecture their grandchild about making a mess in the house, especially ripping the fronds out of a fern and pulling a curtain down (maybe it happened off-page lol). Given the art, Julián seems like a trans girl to me, although no terminology is used; I've used they/them pronouns for this reason. I'm not sure if this book is OwnVoices, as there is little personal information in the author's bio. ★★★★

January books

The first two books I read in January were picture books, which I decided to count in my reading log spreadsheet (adapted from BookRiot's; it is last year's so I had to change the dates etc.) but not in my StoryGraph (follow/friend me!). I bought both of them during Barnes & Noble's half-off books sale in late December. 

A Piñata in a Pine Tree: A Latino Twelve Days of Christmas by Pat Mora, illustrated by Magaly Morales 

This is a cute latine take on the Twelve Days of Christmas song, with stuff like tamalitos and farolitos taking the place of the birds and people of various professions in the original song. Pat Mora has written tons of Hispanic books for children and is very influential in the field, while the artist's first name is the same as one of my relatives. Behind the little girl cavorting with her stuff, we see her parents prepare, greet the visiting abuelita, leave (abuelita is babysitting), and come back with the final Christmas gift: a new baby sibling. Very cute, although the Spanglish may bother some (i.e. my dad and by extension me). I do recommend this. ★★★★½

Jan Brett's The Nutcracker, written and illustrated by Jan Brett

Jan Brett has been known for decades for her beautifully illustrated, richly detailed children's books. I was given her The Twelve Days of Christmas mini picture book in kindergarten by my teacher as a Christmas gift and reread it every year. This one is similarly lovely; I love the details of animals playing musical instruments on each page. I also recommend this one. ★★★★½

 

It feels like everyone I follow/whose posts I'm forced to view despite not following them online is obsessed with the TV show Heated Rivalry. I am not immune to FOMO; I would have watched it, but my brother cancelled his HBO Max account. 😢 The next best thing? The books the show is based on. As a stickler for series book order, I read Game Changer, the first book in the series, then Heated Rivalry, the second, through my public library and Libby (both ebooks). 

 

Game Changer by Rachel Reid

This is a famous athlete x normal person romance, where the famous athlete is a professional hockey player named Scott and the normal person is a service worker named Kip. They meet-cute at the smoothie shop Kip works at; after drinking Kip's recommended blueberry smoothie, Scott breaks his losing streak, to everyone's delight. Obviously that means he has to keep coming back before every game to buy another blueberry smoothie--just to keep winning games, definitely not to see the cute smoothie barista... Kip and Scott fall in love, but being famous in a bro-y sport means Scott is closeted, and Kip isn't sure being back in the closet is worth it. I liked this book a lot and found it both sweet and spicy. The characters' issues with self-worth and being in the closet felt realistic, and I rooted for things to work out for them. ★★★★ 🌶🌶🌶🌶

 

Heated Rivalry (Game Changer #2) by Rachel Reid

Reid's mlm hockey series seems to be loosely interconnected, and you don't really have to read GC first or else you're lost (although it does provide nice background context for That One Scene that Scott & Kip show up in). Shane is a Canadian good boy and does everything by the book; Ilya is a Russian bad boy and is always up in everyone's faces being a jerk. As the two best players in the entire hockey league, they have been in a ~heated rivalry~ since their rookie seasons--and have been secretly hooking up since then. I want to say this book takes place over 10 years? They wish they could quit each other (Brokeback Mountain reference) but can't. Can they open their hearts to love and be themselves without sacrificing the sport they love? I also liked this book a lot and recommend it to fans of the "rivals to lovers" trope. ★★★★ 🌶🌶🌶🌶

Weirdly enough, I was on the waiting list for a couple of weeks for the first book (which I expected), was shockingly able to read Heated Rivalry immediately with no wait, and am now on the waiting list for the third book... which is over 10 weeks long. Why.

The final ebook in S.T. Lynn's Black trans fairytales series became free last month, and I happily snapped it up. I enjoyed Lynn's takes on The Little Mermaid and Cinderella and was really looking forward to this one, as Beauty and the Beast is one of my favorite fairytales. Beauty's Beast is very similar to most BatB takes that I've read; like Mer Made, it's based on the Disney movie (the servants were enchanted into furniture/furnishings). The Beast has antlers and communicates using sign language, which I thought was interesting. This novella is quite short, and I wished for more character development (especially for the relationship between Beauty and the Beast), but I liked the world the writer created. Their relationship felt more like friendship than romance, which is not IMO a bad thing. There were some writing issues and errors (I swear STL made Gaston blond in their book, but in his last description he has black hair??), which took me out of the story. Ultimately I did enjoy this, but the errors made me glad I waited to get this when it was free. There is a little transphobia, and some violence and blood/wounds. ★★★½ 

I bought two books from my friends at Something Novel Books during their pop-up last month, and I shockingly (for me) read one of them within days of buying it! I had watched and enjoyed The Thursday Murder Club movie on Netflix (the cast is excellent, especially Helen Mirren), so I was excited to read the book. I enjoyed the book even more than the movie! Four senior citizens at an English retirement village that used to be a nunnery get together to solve cold case murders in the Thursday Murder Club. To their shock and excitement, they all of a sudden have 2 new (and 1 old) murders to solve! In the process of sleuthing, they uncover the secrets of some of their community members. There is a lot that happens in this book, and a lot to keep track of. We often spend a chapter in various characters' heads, but the story is mainly told from Joyce's diary entries and Elizabeth's perspective. This book is also deeply funny; I was chortling at the reference desk reading it. I loved all the main characters and can't wait to read the rest of the books! This book is a bit too sad and violent to truly count as cozy mystery, but it's pretty close. Trigger warnings for the usual things you expect in a murder mystery (murder, blood, violence, nice police characters, etc.) as well as suicide, grief, and slight xenophobia. ★★★★ 

Book review: The Classic Tales of Beatrix Potter

The March pick for The Enchanted Book Club was the tales of Beatrix Potter. I loved them growing up, as I did all animal books. My sister and I had a mini BP book set in a cardboard drawer that I think my grandma had thrifted; she (my sister) still has the drawer and the remaining books that haven't been lost. I checked out The Classic Tales of  Beatrix Potter: The 23 Original Peter Rabbit Books from my work library since I don't own them (yet). I had read most but not all of them; I don't think I'd read the pigs', hedgehog's, or squirrels' stories. The story I remember best is that of Flopsy, Mopsy, and Cotton-Tail, who fall into Farmer McGregor's hands after eating too much lettuce; that story taught me the word soporific.

I enjoyed the stories very much; the art is beautiful and realistic, with each detail lovingly rendered. The animals really look like their real-life counterparts; Beatrix Potter was a nature illustrator, so this makes sense. The animals are so cute in their little clothes. I had to force myself to slow down and stop reading so fast and look at the pictures. I used to pore over the illustrations as a kid; who knows when that stopped?

I had read an article a while back about how heavily Beatrix Potter had borrowed from the Brer Rabbit stories without crediting them; this kept me from fully enjoying the stories as much as the first time around. So fucked up to steal folklore stories from enslaved people who were literally stolen from their countries and those stories were the only things they had left from their home countries, right?? That really bothers me. She should have been honest about her stories being based on someone else's stories. I was going to bring it up during the bookclub zoom meeting but I chickened out (there wasn't time for everyone to talk anyway). 

Something I'd completely forgotten about was how often the animals are in danger from humans. Of course I'd remembered the danger Farmer McGregor posed to the Peter Rabbit family, but I was kind of surprised by how often the threat of humans turned up with the other animals. It makes sense that the animals would hunt each other and whatnot, as they do in nature/the real world; what weirds me out is that these are sentient, talking animals who often wear clothing and walk on their hind legs, yet the humans in the BP world have zero qualms eating them. If I had talking animals as my neighbors, who could say good morning to me and inquire as to the direction of the market, I would not feel comfortable seeing them as food options, let alone killing and eating them. Why don't the humans consider killing and eating a sentient, talking, clothes-wearing animal to be murder? There's a story where a sailor manipulates a young pig (aka a child) into going on a ship with him, then feeds the pig until he falls asleep, and the ship takes off with the pig trapped on board, all so the sailors will have a pig to fatten and eat on their voyage! That's basically human trafficking, albeit with a pig. No one feels a moral quandary about this? The pig story is BP's fanfiction about how the pig with a ring in its nose got to that island the owl and the pussycat go to in the poem. Funny how she did credit that story. 😒

Anyway, highly recommended. If you want to read this to young children, keep in mind a lot of the animals are often in danger from predator animals and human beings, and a decent percentage of them get animalnapped. That may scare or bother toddlers and small kids; I know my nephews would be like "but why??" 

Score: ★★★★.5 out of 5 stars
Read in: March 17-27
From: borrowed from the library where I work

Genres/classification: children's books, children's literature, children's classics, picture books, picture books anthology, animal books, English literature, low fantasy

Flash Fiction Reviews for November and December

Fortune's Flower by Anthea Lawson - ebook, historical romance  ★★★⯪   🌶🌶🌶

A botanical illustrator and a poor adventurer try not to fall in love (and fail) while looking for a rare flower in Tunisia. I want to say this was maybe the 1830s or '40s? Definitely in the Victorian era. She's looking down the barrel of an arranged marriage to a rich snob to avoid spinsterdom once the trip is over while he needs to find the flower to win his grandfather's inheritance before his jerk cousin does. The setting and trip were interesting and at times exciting (I want to visit Tunisia now), but I felt that the villain didn't get nearly enough comeuppance. Still, a good read. I actually read this one as part of a free historical romance omnibus ebook.  Trigger warnings: adult man flirts with a teenage girl to get her to fall in love with him so he can use her in his nefarious plan and forcibly kisses her, forced marriage threat, period-typical sexism, Orientalism & racism

Fantastic Mr. Fox by Roald Dahl - paperback, middle grade, low fantasy   ★★★⯪

This one is an old childhood favorite. I was so into the Roald Dahl books. I just had to reread my childhood copy after watching the Fantastic Mr. Fox movie by Wes Anderson (good but its own thing, not necessarily a good adaptation even though some lines are lifted verbatim from the book). A fox constantly steals poultry from three local farmers and it enrages them to the point that they sink tons of time and money into trying to kill him. How Mr. Fox gets himself, his family, and their burrowing animals community out of that situation is still very fun to read. I was shocked to see how short the book is; it's practically a short story! It was over so soon. I feel like I spent hours in that book as a kid. Oh well. Great story but Dahl's usual fatphobia and lookism rears its head: it is possible to make villains that aren't fat or ugly or super skinny or whatever, you know. One of the villains is a Little Person, which is also problematic; Dahl focuses way more on the other farmers' appearance though. Trigger warnings: animal mutilation, hunting/attempted murder of animals, starvation, the word dwarf is used for a Little Person, fatphobia, lookism

The No-Girlfriend Rule by Christen Randall - ebook, YA, coming of age/romance   ★★★★⯪

Hollis, a quiet, overlooked fat girl, joins an all-girls' Dungeons & Dragons (called Swords & Sorcery in this book) group in an attempt to get closer to her loser boyfriend because he and his even worse friends won't let her join their group due to their no-girlfriend rule. The way the boys overlooked and treated her made my blood boil, but she and the girls in the S&S group (most of whom are LGBTQ+ and/or neurodivergent or mentally ill) become fast friends, and she gains self-esteem and blossoms. She and one of her friends, Aini, start shipping their characters and flirting in-game as their characters, but it's just for the game, right? 👀 I loved this book so much, but I felt like the awful boys didn't get the comeuppance they deserved, hence the half star. Highly recommended! Trigger warnings: homophobia, transphobia, fatphobia, on-page anxiety attack, ableism, internalized ableism, sexism, bad boyfriend (ask me for specifics)

Christmas Crime in Kingfisher Falls by Phillipa Nefri Clark - ebook, mystery, adult  ★★★⯪

Charlotte moves to Kingfisher Falls, a small Australian town, to work in a bookshop she will eventually take over when the owner retires. She witnesses the first in a string of Christmas tree thefts and falls afoul of the corrupt sheriff, who suspects her and starts stalking her. A solid and twisty mystery, but the small town drama and decades-long grudges, plus the corruption of the sheriff and town governance, made me angry. Weird writing style that felt sort of careful and old-fashioned and didn't work for a modern-day mystery, I felt. Charlotte is in her early? forties and feels simultaneously like an old lady and an older teenager (not letting herself date a guy she's attracted to, which kept being brought up for some reason). I did not enjoy this. Trigger warnings: stalking, a woman is nearly choked to death by a man, police intimidation, police corruption, smash and grab-type theft, bullying and scapegoating, poverty, asshole Karens

Otherworldly by F.T. Lukens - ebook, YA, fantasy, romance  ★★★★

Ellery, along with their cousin and her girlfriend, gets swept into the orbit of Knox, a magical immortal teen guy that Ellery accidentally saved from wraiths, in a land that is always winter but never Christmas. They have to figure out how to stay safe from supernatural beings, keep them from dragging Knox back to the Other World, and figure out why it's stayed winter for five years. This book is set in a world much like ours (malls and smartphones) but also has gods and goddesses in a way that feels kind of like Greek and Roman mythology; very American Gods vibes. The latter fourth of the book also has Orpheus and Eurydice vibes. Despite all that supernatural drama, teens stay teen-ing crush-wise. I liked this a lot! Trigger warnings: stabbing death, magical and physical violence, magical murder, religious trauma

Finally Fitz by Marissa Kanter - ebook, YA, romance  ★★★★

Influencer Fitz is psyched to follow her girlfriend Dani to New York for a fashion designer workshop and to be with her in NYC, but Dani dumps her for focusing on her content creation instead of Dani. Heartbroken, Fitz stumbles into Levi, her estranged childhood best friend, on the subway. Levi is kind of in the same boat, so Fitz suggests faking a relationship to get back at both their exes. Fitz and Levi are having fun going all over NYC on cute 'dates', but Fitz is struggling to come up with project ideas for her fashion workshop. This book also deals with mental health, burnout, social media obsession, sibling relationships, "Jewish feelings" (direct quote), estranged childhood best friend who stopped talking to you feelings, etc. Levi is such a cinnamon roll. Also there was a character named Em Rojas, which is basically M. Rojas. I liked this bi4bi romance very much. Trigger warnings: depression, burnout, mental illness, feeling like you're not enough

Make My Wish Come True by Rachel Lippincott & Alyson Derrick - ebook, YA, romance, Christmas

Cute sapphic Hallmark Christmas movie with fake dating romcom on the outside, more estranged childhood best friends feelings plus they've been in love with each other the whole time and one of them is a neglected and abused teen actress AKA super sad on the inside. Whew. I did not expect the sad stuff so I was unprepared. I liked the small Hallmark Christmas movie-y town and the cute holidates though, and the happy ending. The horrible [spoiler] should have been thrown in jail though. Spoiler-y trigger warnings: neglect, an adult controls, isolates, and manipulates a vulnerable, neglected teen; adult gives teen alcohol & drugs or at least just facilitates their underage alcohol and drug use

I also reread Christmas with Anne and Other Holiday Stories by L.M. Montgomery and A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens, as is my custom every holiday season.

January books

 January felt so long but also like wow, it's over already? Time is weird.

My first read of 2024 was a book from the Sister Fidelma mysteries series, Suffer Little Children (summary here). I got this one, as I got the other first four books, from the free books rack in my library. As usual, this was an interesting murder mystery where I didn't see the twist coming. Peter Tremayne surprisingly limited himself to only one mention of Fidelma's "rebellious red strands of hair snaking out of her headdress", and then only right at the beginning. I did not enjoy this one because there were multiple instances where children (and adults etc.) were massacred in cold blood. Just way too sad. I gave it 3.5 stars. Trigger warnings: murder, children murdered, graphic depictions of corpses including blood, bodies burned, assassination mention, death, sexism.

 

I'm auditing a C.S. Lewis class for fun this quarter, and I'm really enjoying the class and rereading Lewis's books again. The professor lived in and ran the Kilns (CSL's home) for several years and is friends with lots of CSL-related people, including his stepson, so she has tons of fascinating insight to share. So far I've reread the first two Chronicles of Narnia, The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe and Prince Caspian. Those are the only two Chronicles we're reading in the class, so I may reread the others at some point later this year. 

I also reread Surprised By Joy: The Shape of My Early Life, which is his memoir of his life up to becoming a Christian, and how the Joy/longing/sehnsuct he felt at nature and fairytales and mythology primed him for God despite being an atheist. Unsurprisingly, Lewis also talks about his schooling, and there was just so much physical abuse and bullying throughout his childhood and adolescent schools that it's a surprise he was able to learn anything. I think I maybe last read this book in my early twenties, and of course bring different views/opinions/etc. to the reading now as an adult in my mid-thirties. Lewis's account of how he felt he had to play a certain role with his father instead of being himself I had completely forgotten; his annoyance at having to forgo his alone time and reading in order to play the dutiful son was just too real. I think his father had ADHD, given Lewis's depictions of the way he thought and acted. Some of the stuff, such as his dad's quick, confusing way of thinking and him making his sons be/sit with him constantly out of some idea of family is so much like my mom. So often during my adolescence and young adulthood I'd be holed up in my room reading and hear my mom call out, "Michelle! Come be with your family!" and it was so annoying. Justice for introverted bookish children of extroverted ADHD parents! The sheer amount of everything he read and all the languages he learned is staggering; I especially enjoyed reading about his time studying with his uber-logical tutor. 4 stars, not sure how to rate this spice-wise because while there are frank depictions of "immorality", they are just written frankly in an academic/general way and not meant to titillate. Trigger warnings: physical abuse/punishment of children, starvation of children, neglect, bullying, passive suicidal ideation, loss of parent, mentions of sexual relationships between minors/teenage boys, war mentions, bugs/insects mentions (Lewis had a phobia at least as a boy)

I'm really enjoying all the readings, and am currently making my way slowly through Mere Christianity and Out of the Silent Planet.

Regency romance novels and favorite rereads

 Wow, it's been forever since I wrote a book review! Whoops 😬

 

The last read of July was The Nonesuch, a Regency romance by Georgette Heyer. Heyer was basically the author who made Regency romance novels a thing and has greatly impacted the genre (second only to Jane Austen herself, of course). This book is about the most popular rich gentleman in London buying a mansion in a small country town and getting to know everyone, and everyone freaking out and gossiping about him. A "nonesuch" appears to be the male version of the society's "diamond of the first water". The nonesuch brings his young titled cousin with him, and the most beautiful girl in town sets her eyes on him, while her governess catches the eyes of the nonesuch. If you love the characters and setting of a Regency English country town more than the main romantic pairings, you will love this book. I didn't mind this that much, but spending so much time with other characters over the romances was unexpected. The beautiful girl was so spoiled and a pain in the ass that I wanted to shake some sense into her. The drama she creates eclipses the other romantic pairing in this book, and the author doesn't help by telling rather than showing its progression. Overall, just fine. Recommended if you like Regency historical romance novels. 3.5 out of 5 stars, selling. No spice (just kisses). Trigger warnings: teen girl flirts with and is flirted with by adult men (early twenties and early/mid-thirties), horses being whipped mentions, era-typical sexism, era-typical classism, lookism

Good Omens has been dominating my mindscape lately, as the second season came out in late July. I watched it, then watched the whole show all the way through, then turned to this book in desperation. There were so many little details I'd forgotten, and some random racist bits that made me cringe (the authors don't seem to be in favor of them, just describing middle-aged white English people behaviour. The Korean car having voice commands in bad English is suspect tho). There was other stuff I did wish had made it into the show, like the Brazilian man watching the Amazon rainforest grow back in/through his office building. Such a good book, and highly recommended. I made an Instagram post with (among other things) books from my top three authors, and put Good Omens to represent Neil Gaiman while also sneaking in Terry Pratchett. 4 stars, permanent collection. Trigger warnings: horror, body horror, murder?, a character is called a homophobic slur, racist English 'accents' of the Asian and Native American variety (the last one made by a white woman), everyday sexism

I read a couple of free romance novel ebooks while traveling, as I wanted something quick and easy to read. First up was The Footman and I, which was mostly a fun read. I liked that the heroine was a political activist in favor of poor rights, and she challenged the hero about a bill he wanted passed. I didn't like how she was 18 and he was 29, plus he was lying to her the entire time about being a servant. Overall a fun read, and I recommend it if you like Regency romance novels. It's currently still free via Barnes & Noble, so go check it out if you want. 3.5 stars, 4 out of 5 chilies 🌶  Trigger warnings: the aforementioned age gap, not asking for consent as is typical with this genre, male lead lies to female lead about his identity, period-typical sexism and classism, drunkenness

The second free romance novel ebook I read was The Spinster and the Rake, which is about a duke and a young lady forced to become engaged to avoid scandal when they're caught kissing (instant sexual attraction on both their parts, naturally). She has to take duchess lessons and they're so attracted to each other but his demeanor irks her as well. What I found interesting about this book was that the duke is autistic (the term is not used in the book due to the period) and the heroine is neurodivergent as well (less examined but I feel like she is). A lot of the way he is is because he's masking his autism from everyone and his fiance is disrupting his schedule and pressing his buttons. He's afraid she'll reject him and think him broken and she's afraid he'll never love and accept her. The book description says it's like My Fair Lady meets Pride and Prejudice, and while there are definite similarities, this book isn't them. As a fellow neurodivergent, I didn't like that she isn't really a spinster (just a young introvert uninterested in marriage) and he's not really a rake (he does have a history of bedding married women but it's not his defining quality and it barely comes up at all). I just don't buy instant sexual attraction and instant lust as plot catalysts (#i'mtooaceforthis). Anyway it's fine. 3 stars, 4 chilies. Trigger warnings: not asking for consent as is typical with this genre, suicide mentions, ableism, period-typical sexism, sex-shaming, and classism; alcohol mentions, financial scam and ruin

 I decided to reread Peter Pan, specifically the copy that I bought for 50 cents from my library's book sale, which is a facsimile of the first edition. The illustrations sadly look like mediocre-quality photocopies. I'd forgotten several details, like how Peter cries in his sleep, and how the Lost Boys all wear bear skins and are adopted by the Darlings at the end, and how the r*dsk*ns have Lost Boy scalps hanging from their belts. Peter Pan is always darker and more racist than you think. I'd also forgotten just how weirdly gendered the children's experience of Neverland is. I did remember Wendy being their mother, but that's literally all she did; the whole time she was sewing and darning and cleaning and cooking and singing to them, except for like two times where she's in danger and has to be rescued by Peter. Like, girl, have some adventures! You're going to be cleaning up and taking care of boys and men your whole life; you can do that at home! Like why is that play for her? I also don't really get why every female character was in love with Peter Pan when he's so dismissive of them and takes them for granted. He carves such a deep groove in Wendy's brain that she feels she's betrayed him by growing up and getting married. Girl, you are not a priority for him! Despite this, I cannot help but be moved by the last scene when they meet again and the story begins over again with Jane, her daughter. I suppose I'm one to talk since this story continues to be so important to me. I guess the best fairytale and fantasy stories are the ones that are deeply sad. 4.5 stars, permanent collection. Trigger warnings: murder, violence, racist Native American caricatures and slurs, Black character described in racist way, 1-handed amputee villain (ableist trope of disabled character being the bad guy), period-typical sexism and gender roles/gendered labor

Rest of May books: Marvelous Middle Grade Monographs

I've been putting off writing book reviews for the other books I read in May, so I decided to just write about them all in one post. They are all children's books, on the high and low ends of the middle grade spectrum.

The sole new read of this post is The Girl Who Drank the Moon by Kelly Barnhill. You can read the book summary here. This book was a lovely, sad, and engrossing fairytale with memorable characters. The title is a little misleading since Luna doesn't drink the whole moon, but is given moonlight to drink by accident as a baby, which makes her very magical. It gave me the same lovely sadness as The Last Unicorn, and was similarly filled with mystery and magic and wonder. I read it because I thought it was set in an Asian or Asian-inspired country, since Luna's dress and Xan's name feel Asian to me (and because of the origami cranes), and I wanted another Asian read for Asian American Heritage Month. It's not; the setting is more like a typical fantasy setting with the woods, but the Bog is unique. The poems of the Bog and Bog Monster's origin were lovely and echoed the beginnings of Genesis and John. There are some classic fairytale elements, such as the witch, the dragon, the foundling(s), and the seven-league boots, but this book felt both familiar and new. It will stay with me for a long time. 4.5/5 stars, keeping for now. Aesthetics moodboard  Trigger warnings: baby abandonment, babies left to die in the forest (they are always rescued), baby forcibly taken from its mother, imprisonment, corrupt power-hungry leaders, permanent disfigurement due to (magical paper) bird attack, grief and sorrow and regret, a forgetting and magic-sealing spell is placed on a child and it gives her terrible headaches, old woman (witch) becomes very old and frail in a way reminiscent of disease and dying, death, pain

 

I've been working on reorganizing and shelving my books, and I came across and read The Boxcar Children, which is the first and best book of the series and an old childhood favorite. This book, which is on the border between early reader and middle grade reading levels, is about the four Alden siblings who, orphaned and alone in the world, move into an abandoned boxcar and live off of the land, the dump, and oldest-born Henry's lawn mowing job. The depictions of finding crockery in the dump, swimming in the creek, and picking blueberries while living in a boxcar sounded so dang fun to me as a kid, and they honestly still sound really fun now. The kids are industrious to the point of being didactic, and the labor is really gendered for some reason, but this doesn't take away from the fun of the simple life. As a kid I mapped my siblings and myself to the four Aldens, as 2 are girls and 2 are boys just like us (I was Jessie, in case you're wondering). I gave this one away as I have limited shelf space, but I can always revisit it at the library. This is a good article, albeit spoilery. Here's a blog post by Danny Lavery, who agrees with me! 4 stars, sold/given away. Trigger warnings: poverty (but Fun™), food insecurity, orphans, old-fashioned gender roles, Protestant work ethic/values, illness, family estrangement, the doctor tells the kids' grandfather where they are without their consent/telling them despite knowing the kids don't want their grandfather to know they're in town

I watched the animated Disney Alice in Wonderland movie last month, which I'd seen bits and pieces of but hadn't watched all the way through. I enjoyed the movie and its iconic aesthetic, although I wish they'd stuck to just Alice's Adventures in Wonderland without adding stuff from Through the Looking Glass. Naturally, I reread both from the library while sitting at the Reference desk. Enjoyable and weird as always; I think it'd been too long since my last reread since there had been some things I'd forgotten. Obviously I recommend the two Alice books since they are my favorites. For full explanations of all the references, jokes and math, I recommend The Annotated Alice edition, which has both Alice books. The library copy I read had both books and originally had the cover at left. 4/5 stars for both. Trigger warnings: references to death and accidents, adult-seeming characters grab at Alice and scold/demand things from her, fantasy violence (off with their head), sentient animal cruelty, a moment of classism and ableism from Alice about a poor and "stupid" classmate, rudeness, weirdness

Book Review: Dragonwings by Laurence Yep

Moon Shadow only knows two things about his father, Windrider: he lives in San Francisco and used to craft beautiful kites. One day shortly after his eighth birthday, Cousin Hand Clap arrives with a letter from Windrider asking Moon Shadow to join him in San Francisco. When Moon Rider arrives in America he learns that his father makes a living doing laundry and dreams of building a flying machine just like the Wright Brothers. But making this fantastical dream a reality proves to be no easy task, as intolerance, poverty, and even an earthquake stand in their way.

Inspired by the story of a Chinese immigrant who created a flying machine in 1909, Dragonwings touches on the struggles and dreams of Chinese immigrants navigating opportunity and prejudice in San Francisco.

I think I was in the fourth grade when I first read Dragonwings, as that's when California public elementary schools teach California history, and I loved the book. I was captivated by the fantasy aspect of it, even though Windrider's dream is such a small part of the book, and I remember drawing the King of Dragons with lots of tiny detailed scales (complimented by my classmate as "cool"). The writing is simultaneously gorgeous and detailed as well as believable as a child's voice. I bought this library binding school edition of Dragonwings with complementary readings from a thrift store. 

As I read the book, I re-remembered parts of it that I hadn't thought of in years. The parts I remembered best were the dragon dream, the white lady and her granddaughter, their house's stained glass window of St. George fighting the dragon, and the plane's flight. It was like reconnecting with an elementary school friend you remembered well, but find they're different than you thought since it's been 25 years since you've seen them.

I hadn't remembered the extent of the hardship Moon Shadow and his family face; the first night he's in the Lee laundry house, Chinatown is hit by a window-smashing white mob. There's frank mentions of hate crimes against Chinese immigrants; Moon Shadow's own grandfather, who had moved to America to help build the railroads, was lynched. There's threats within the Chinese community as well: the rival gangs and Black Dog, a "cousin" who's addicted to opium and prone to theft and violence against his own people and family. Trouble with Black Dog's gang prompts Windrider and Moon Shadow to move out of Chinatown into a boarding house's garage, which brings them into contact with the kindly old landlady and her headstrong granddaughter. They all become friends and teach each other about their respective cultures.

Windrider becomes obsessed with creating a flying machine like the Wrights brothers' in order to live up to his previous life as a dragon. The characters all experience the San Francisco earthquake of 1906 and the subsequent fires, which were harrowing to read about. This book taught me more about the circumstances of Chinese immigrants in the early 20th century and what it was like to live through the devastating days during and after the earthquake than anything my textbook had. This is why historical fiction is so important; it helps children and adults experience the time and circumstances through the eyes of the characters, and cultivates empathy. It's radically important, and I'm glad Yep wrote this book.

To be honest, I mostly skimmed the related readings. One was a Ray Bradbury play of an Orientalist caricature emperor who executes a man who flies in a giant kite-inspired flying machine because the people must not be tempted to dream, or something. Typical Bradbury stuff. The depiction of the emperor is silly and stereotypical (he strikes a gong after every sentence he says), but I think Bradbury is making fun of the stereotypical & Orientalist way Chinese people are depicted in the early to mid-twentieth century. The poems were fine, and I skipped the "'The Chinese Must Go'" essay. There was an eyewitness essay about the San Fran earthquake that I also skimmed; I found it interesting that Jack London focused on the positives and made it sound like everyone only helped each other and no one did anything bad. I know Dragonwings is not an eyewitness account, but it's frank in depicting looters, including among the police and US military dispatched for public "safety". Unsurprisingly, the Chinese immigrants are forced out of the park where homeless survivors have been sent and dragged around San Francisco (not literally) due to racism and xenophobia. 

Overall, a sad yet very good book. An excellent read for Asian American Heritage Month. Do they still teach this book in elementary school? Let me know.

Score: 3.5 out of 5 stars
Read in: May 23
From: the thrift store
Status: selling

See my aesthetics moodboard for Dragonwings.

Representation: Chinese, immigrant, poor/lower class/low socioeconomic level characters who experience poverty/economic hardship, minor disabled character with 1 hand, minor/secondary elderly characters, opium addict is the violent antagonist, natural disasters survivors

Cover notes: The copy I read all those years ago had the exact same illustration of Moon Shadow and his father with the kite. This school copy is fine, although I don't like the yellow circle. I think mine had an image of the Newbery Honor Award the book won.

Trigger warnings: murder, lynching, hate crimes, death, racism, xenophobia, a child is beat unconscious by an adult, misogyny/violence against sex workers (off-page), buildings collapse during earthquake killing the people inside, secondary character cuts his own hand off with a cleaver, drug addiction, poverty, physical violence, racist bullying by older child, blood, child labor, people in shock due to earthquakes, hunger, sudden disaster-based homelessness, gambling addiction, theft

Book Reviews: The Library of Ever books by Zeno Alexander

I bought The Library of Ever and Rebel in the Library of Ever from Book Outlet before I learned of their antisemitism (Book Outlet, not the books). They are fantasy middle grade books about a magical Library and Lenora's learning to be a librarian in it and completing the tasks ahead of her. 

 

With her parents off traveling the globe, Lenora is bored, bored, bored—until she discovers a secret doorway into the ultimate library. Mazelike and reality-bending, the library contains all the universe’s wisdom. Every book ever written, and every fact ever known, can be found within its walls. And Lenora becomes its newly appointed Fourth Assistant Apprentice Librarian.

She rockets to the stars, travels to a future filled with robots, and faces down a dark nothingness that wants to destroy all knowledge. To save the library, Lenora will have to test her limits and uncover secrets hidden among its shelves. 

Obviously I loved this. Magic library outside of space and time? Sign me up! (Literally. Can I work there?) Some quibbles: having Lenora be a "poor little rich girl" at the mercy of her neglectful nanny does not inspire you to like her or make her relatable. Obviously neglectful/absent parents are a staple of children's literature, as only then can the adventures begin, but why make her rich? It adds nothing to the story, and it doesn't make sense with her helpfulness and responsibility, as rich kids don't learn those traits, nor is it really expected of them until they're older. I also didn't like the library staff ranking and how it was applied. There's no such thing as assistant apprentice librarians, and children cannot be librarians. This feeds into the "everyone who works in a library is a librarian" myth, which is not true. You have to have an MLIS/MLS to be a librarian. Lenora gets her status upgraded magically every time she successfully helps a patron, which, I get it, magic library, but it also rankled my librarian nerves. Also, she keeps getting yanked around to different library desks as soon as she answers a patron question, which makes no sense. Why don't they have more library staff? What rankled my librarian nerves even more was how little training Lenora got. She was placed at a desk and told how to greet patrons and then told to help them, but not how. That is not how it works!! Why does she only interact with one other librarian (the awesome Malachi) and can't work with or ask any other librarian for help or information? Our part-time and new librarians (all college-educated adults) had to shadow current librarians at the reference desk for a few sessions and undergo training in order to staff the reference desk by themselves, and they just stick a 10 year old at a desk and tell her to say "how may I help you?"?? Irresponsible. To be fair, a lot of children's adventure stories don't really have any training; the kids just promise to do something (as Lenora does) and boom, they are the wizard or king or questers or whatever. Despite my librarian rants, I did love this story, and I want to spend more time in the Library of Ever.  4.5 out of 5 stars, keeping.  Trigger warnings (that I remember): adults and robots attempt/threaten to harm a child, fantasy violence, ants, unscientific space and time travel, incorrect library staff procedures and hiring

 

Lenora returns to the magical Library—which holds every book ever known on its shelves. But she discovers the Library is under new management, its incredible rooms and corridors turned dark and sinister.

She quickly connects with a secret resistance that’s trying to free knowledge from the shadows threatening it. Her new friends introduce her to an ancient lost city, hang-gliding, and mathematical beings larger than the universe itself. And they help her face the mysterious Board of new leaders—who are leading the Library into darkness.

Now it’s up to Lenora to prove that knowledge is always more powerful than ignorance and fear.

This book is set not long after the first one, although of course the Library of Ever is outside of time and space. It picks up the thread of the Forces of Darkness (i.e. censorship) trying to misinform patrons and fight the Library and centers it as the main plot point and issue of this book. This time, the Forces of Darkness have infiltrated the Board (which is in charge of the Library), removing books and firing librarians. The tone of the book is therefore darker and more suspenseful than the first, and Lenora's fight to help patrons and defeat the Forces of Darkness feels scary and real. We are in the midst of a rise in book-banning and censorship, and it often feels like the Forces of Darkness will win. We need to fight for libraries and the right to read and remember that "knowledge is a light." Like the first book, we meet more fascinating beings and concepts and learn lots of new things. I found the sub-library of forgotten works to be fascinating and sad. May all works and knowledge come to light. 4.5 out of 5 stars, keeping.  Trigger warnings (that I remember): adults and monsters attempt/threaten to harm children, fear and (child-level) horror, censorship, book-banning, misinformation, theft, despair

 

There are two books in this series, and I need more. Zeno Alexander appears to be a fictional person and pen name a la Lemony Snicket. I highly recommend these books to anyone who loves libraries and magic.

See my aesthetics moodboard for the duology!

HarperCollins and subsidiaries books of 2022

The HarperCollins strike is over, so I'm going to publish short book review blurbs about the HC books I read since the strike started. TBH, it's been a while, so I may not remember everything about the books.

 

The Chronicles of Narnia: The Magician's Nephew (read in November) is the first Narnia book I ever read and as such I have a soft spot for it. Such a good story. Two English neighbor kids in 1900 set out to explore their townhouses and are forced into a magical experiment that will show them the end of one world and the beginning of another, setting in motion the rest of the series. To me it has some of the most creative and rich imagery. Uncle Andrew should be in jail and deserved a lasting comeuppance. More males acting stupidly again; Lewis's misogyny where?? lol One minor plot point I want to talk about: Aslan says Frank the cabbie and Helen his wife have not yet encountered grief, but they're totally OK with being yanked out of their world and never seeing anyone in it again? Don't they have families? If they don't have families, then haven't they known grief? Didn't they have friends they'd miss? If you don't have family or friends you know grief, in my opinion. 4.5 stars, permanent collection. Trigger warnings for this book: children used/forced to participate in magical/scientific experiments without their consent by adult, physical violence, an adult physically hurts/harms children repeatedly, threats of violence and death, animal abuse and cruelty (to a horse), sick/dying parent, verbal manipulation of children, off-page magical genocide, off-page magical immediate extinction of all living species, sexism, theft

 

A True Wonder: The Comic Book Hero Who Changed Everything (read in November) is a picture book biography about Wonder Woman and how her comics came to be, with an especial focus on the women who made her possible. It was written by Kirsten W. Larsen and illustrated by Katy Wu. I loved this book and learned a lot from it. A must-have for fans of Wonder Woman and comics! GIRL POWER! 5 stars, keeping.  Trigger warnings (that I remember): sexism towards real women and Wonder Woman, sexualization of Wonder Woman's outfit (wanting her to be more/less covered up)

The Chronicles of Narnia: The Last Battle (read in December) is indeed the last book of the series. I like it but at the same time it's depressing. Eustace and Jill are called back to Narnia to help its last king attempt to save his country's creatures and soul from forces outside and within. I found Shift's truth-bending and manipulation of religious belief for power to be prescient when I last re-read this series during the Bush administration, and I continue to find it prescient during this current era of fake news and Christofascism. My heart hurts for Tirian, the Narnians, and all the sad stuff that happens. Important to note that racism rears its head again, due to the part Calormenes play in this story. To go about undetected, Tirian and the kids put on brownface to impersonate Calormene soldiers. Tirian and other Narnians say racist things about Calormenes and their skin colors. This book's One Good Brown Person is Emeth; I can't go into his whole thing in the short paragraph I want this review to be (a good article; 'ware spoilers). Not to mention, the problem of Susan (ditto. all of his Narnia articles are so good)! There's a lot packed into this little book; you could say it's bigger on the inside, like the stable. 4.5 stars, permanent collection. Trigger warnings: war, battles, murder, death, physical violence, animal cruelty, cruelty to sentient creatures, slavery mentions, brownface, racism/colorism, child soldiers, hunger and thirst mentions, fantasy horror, sexism, heavy-handed Christian symbolism

Rest of non-HC childrens' books of 2022

I read Bravo! Poems About Amazing Hispanics back in September for Hispanic Heritage Month. It was purchased from Book Outlet. This brightly colored picture book contains short poem-bios of notable Hispanic figures from history (many of which I had not heard about) written by Margarita Engle and illustrated by Rafael Lopez. I've enjoyed every book I've read from Engle and know her to be a notable Hispanic author of Hispanic books for kids. This was no exception, and I learned a lot from this book, and want to learn more about the people in it.  Highly recommended. 5 stars, keeping.  Trigger warnings (that I remember): racism, discrimination, poverty, sexism, injustice

 

Another purchase from Book Outlet, Viva Frida is a dreamy picture book of/on/about Frida Kahlo. It's not really a biography as much as it is a book celebrating Frida, her aesthetic and imagination. It's written by Yuyi Morales, who has created many beautiful latine picture books, and the illustrations are actually pictures taken by Tim O'Meara of Yuyi's beautifully styled marionette puppets of Frida, Fulang Chang (Frida's monkey), the iconic Frida deer, etc. There are a few traditional illustrations for the dream aspects which are by Yuyi. This was a lovely, dreamy celebration of Frida and I enjoyed it. 4 out of 5 stars. No trigger warnings that I can think of, except dolls/marionettes

I hadn't bothered to put this in my reading spreadsheet, but I also bought and read another Frida kids' book from Book Outlet, per my goal to own every book about Frida Kahlo. A Parrot in the Painting: The Story of Frida Kahlo and Bonito is an early reader book for like first graders. It's a fictionalized story of Bonito, Frida's parrot, trying to think of things to do that would make Frida paint him. She'd painted her other pet animals but not him. It's a cute story that kids might enjoy. I may give this one to my nephew when he's old enough. No star grade. No trigger warnings except possibly for birds and animals, owning exotic pets (in the 1940s)

 

Okay, that's it, since the rest of the picture books I read were from HarperCollins or its subsidiaries, and the strike is ongoing.

Book Review: A-Okay by Jarad Greene

When Jay starts eighth grade with a few pimples he doesn’t think much of it at first…except to wonder if the embarrassing acne will disappear as quickly as it arrived. But when his acne goes from bad to worse, Jay’s prescribed a powerful medication that comes with some serious side effects. Regardless, he’s convinced it’ll all be worth it if clear skin is on the horizon!

Meanwhile, school isn’t going exactly as planned. All of Jay’s friends are in different classes; he has no one to sit with at lunch; his best friend, Brace, is avoiding him; and—to top it off—Jay doesn’t understand why he doesn’t share the same feelings two of his fellow classmates, a boy named Mark and a girl named Amy, have for him. 

Eighth grade can be tough, but Jay has to believe everything’s going to be a-okay…right?

I bought this book from (you guessed it) Book Outlet as part of my quest to own every book about asexuality. I rarely read graphic novels or middle grade books, especially ones about boys, so this is a departure from my usual reading. I wanted something low-stakes and fun/easy after the last book I read. Also, this is my first ace read for Asexual Awareness Month.

This book is heavily based on the authors' experiences with developing bad acne at a late/r age. Jay/Jarad had perfect skin before getting bad acne, which led to being teased for being a "porcelain doll" (a compliment I've often received. I guess it's an insult for boys). Jay has low self-esteem due to his skin issues and tries developing a fashion style to make up for it. Besides his skin, Jay's main concern is that his class schedule keeps him apart from his 7th grade friends, who all seem to be ditching him for new friend groups. Jay struggles with making new friends, a rigorous skincare routine, medication side effects and monthly blood draws to make sure the Accutane isn't damaging his liver. It bothered me that Jay's dad didn't bother to try making his food low-fat, despite the dermatologist specifically telling Jay to eat a low-fat diet due to his medication. I also didn't like how his parents were dismissive and discouraging of Jay's desire to study art. They weren't cruel about it, but it still rubbed me the wrong way.

My brother also took Accutane for his acne. My siblings all had pretty bad acne but I don't remember if the younger two were put on it as well. Accutane really sucks to take; I remember my brother having to wear a hat and stay out of the sun. I actually think it impacted his joints negatively, if memory serves. Due to my developmental issues, I never had to worry about acne; I still mostly don't as long as I wash my face and change my pillowcase regularly. I did once have a very bad allergic reaction that left my face very dry, itchy, painful and leprous-looking for what felt like years, so I know what it's like to have perfect skin you take for granted until it's gone. It really does fork up your self-esteem. This was several years before the pandemic so I couldn't even hide behind face masks. I used to get looks like I was diseased. Most people would tell you my skin is flawless today, but I know it's not the same. That perfect skin I used to have is gone forever. 

Jay's asexuality is not dwelled on very much. Two of his friends have crushes on him and ask him out, but he doesn't have feelings for either of them. Jay's lack of crushes puts him at odds with his fellow middle-schoolers, as you can imagine. Mark, one of said crushing friends, casually calls him an ace, and Jay goes home and googles what it means, thus learning about asexuality. His aceness is briefly mentioned a few times more in the book but doesn't really come up past that, which disappointed me a bit. Jay accepted his asexuality immediately, happy to have a word for what he is. I would have liked to see more about him dealing with that and maybe discussing it with Mark. That said, I'm really glad this book exists; now middle grade kids are going to learn what asexuality is instead of not hearing about it until adulthood like me and a lot of other aces (including the author). Another thing I will say is that this book seems to conflate asexuality with aromanticism, which are two separate things. Jay doesn't have any romantic feelings, which to me makes him aromantic as well as asexual, but the book's only mention of aromanticism is one word, aromantic, shown in Jay's googling. I'm ace but I got crushes all the time, even in middle school.

I enjoyed this book, even though it delved into eighth grade life and worries and that's well over half my life ago. I was kind of disappointed when the book ended; I wouldn't mind reading a sequel that follows Jay into high school. I'd also be interested in seeing how he deals with being aroace then. I would recommend this book to the target audience and anyone who has ever dealt with anything Jay deals with. 

Score: 4 out of 5 stars
Read in: October 20
From: Book Outlet
Status: tentatively keeping

Trigger warnings: needles/blood drawing, including in the face (no blood shown); some bullying, teasing, mocking; low self-esteem, anxiety, friend rejection, friend estrangement, parents dismissive of Jay's desire to study art

Rest of May books - children's books

Continuing my Narnia reread, I read The Horse and His Boy, which is one of the most unique books of the series. Two enslaved Talking Horses and their runaway child charges escape from Calormen (Arabian Nights land) to go to Narnia, braving the bustling capital city, royal entanglements, and mysterious lions. All the other books are set in Narnia and partially in England, so the change is refreshing. We see the story through the eyes of Shasta, a Northern (white) boy who decides to run away with Bree (Talking Horse) when his adoptive father decides to sell him to Bree's master. I would have liked to equally hear the story from Aravis, the Calormene noble girl escaping an arranged marriage with her Talking Horse Hwin. But of course the whole point of this book is that brown people can't be trusted, except for One Good Brown Person. Fascinating setting, even if the males in this story act stupidly. The kids stumble onto conspiracies which are interesting and dangerous. I liked this book despite the racism, and I liked Aravis' classism being pointed out and comeuppance given. 4.5 stars, permanent collection. Trigger warning: racism, racist stereotypes and caricatures, misogyny, slavery, war, child soldiers, children with weapons, physical violence, child abuse mentions, children hit by adults, a slave is whipped, a lion claws a child, sexism, classism, entitlement, child marriage, arranged marriage

Next was Planting Stories: The Life of Librarian and Storyteller Pura Belpré by Anika Aldamuy Denise and illustrated by Paola Escobar, which I bought from Book Outlet. This is a picture book biography of Puerto Rican librarian Pura Belpré, who brought Spanish stories and bilingual storytelling to the latine children who attended the New York Public Library. The American Library Association has a Pura Belpré award for excellent latine children's books, such as this one (note the silver medal). This is a beautiful semi-bilingual book with bright, lovely illustrations, and I enjoyed reading it. My mom, who was born in New York and grew up in the sixties and seventies, was delighted to learn about Belpré. I really look up to Belpré, as a latina librarian. Representation is so important, and I laud those who paved the way. 4.5 stars, keeping.